My name is Bianca and currently I’m 16 and I don’t feel okay at all.
So the reason I created this blog (that probably no one will read) is that I love the Beatles and I have nothing better to do, even though I should be studying history right now.
I pretend to write daily but maybe there will be days when that won’t be possible because of school and other stuff. Or maybe I will be busy listening to the boys instead of writing.
One of the main reasons why I think it must be cool to keep a blog is that I can read everything when I’m older, just like a virtual diary. Maybe 30 years from now I’ll read something saying that I was sad so I listened to Hey Jude and made it better, and I think it will be nice. It can also be my hiding place since I really need one.. I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure because of a lot of things (school, family, self doubt, etc) and I don’t know if I can get through it sometimes. I just need to put everything in here since I have no one to talk to, either because they really don’t care or because I don’t want to be a burden for them with my stupid fears.
Anyway, I’m only sure that even if nobody reads what I write, I’ll keep on doing it and loving the Beatles. They’re with me eight days a week, helping me get through stuff and saving me!
Today it would be Linda‘s 76th birthday if she was still alive. She is my favourite woman on the Beatles’ universe, I have to admit.
She and Paul went through a lot together and they were the first Beatle marriage not ending up on divorce. She had a huge impact not only on Paul but on other people too. Thank God she existed and it sucks that she’s not here anymore. She would certainly do a lot more and hopefully would still be married to Paul.
Months ago I started reading a biography of Paul, Man on the Run, and it had a lot of things written about Linda. When Paul starts talking about Wingsand Linda becoming a musician beside him, I gained even more respect for her. She had no experience and we all know Paul’s a perfectionist and that it can be hard to work with him sometimes, even though we love him and his work. He told that sometimes he was so nervous and trying to make things right and he ended up falling on Linda sometimes. I believe she felt very pressured because she wasn’t even a musician and suddenly she was playing next to an ex-Beatle. It isn’t easy.
But she did it and they were such an amazing couple with amazing kids. They’re truly an example for me and I can’t imagine if they didn’t meet. She was also an awesome photographer and thanks to her we have lots of really nice pictures of not only the Beatles but also other great musicians like The Rolling Stones. My favourites are those intimate photos of Paul with his kids though. I’m sure they were great parents.
Anyway, lots of good people die young and Linda was one of them. It sucks that she died of cancer but it happens. I think she’s still an influence for some people (like me!) and Paul never forgot her. He will always have a special love for her and it’s great that he still talks about her and her memory is still alive.
Yes.. It’s true. I started studying tourism only this week (4 days ago exactly) and I’m giving up on it. I always doubted if this was really what I wanted to do and I got to the conclusion that it really isn’t.
I’ve been feeling under pressure to follow this and now I regret not thinking more about it instead of trying to convince myself that what others want for me it’s exactly what I want too. I got more confused the week before starting classes but I thought it was my anxiety talking. Turns out my heart and intuition were always right.
This morning I realized that I should’ve insist on the idea of taking care of other people (which I was expecting to be able to do in my spare time that would be close to none) when I saw a boy (sorry, I really can’t tell if he was a grown up man already or not) with Down Syndrome next to me on the bus. He was the loveliest.. and that’s when I knew that I really wanted to take care of people with disabilities or elders.
I feel like a huge disappointment to my family right now and I will tell my sister tomorrow. I don’t want to lose the year but I’m not happy. In case I have to stay at home I will try to get a part-time job at least. I’m 16 and here in Portugal we can only start working when we’re major (at the age of 18) because the law was changed kind of recently. Anyway there are some coffees that don’t mind having teenagers working at part-time there, specially because they need people. My mom called me “slow” when I told her that I wouldn’t mind being a waitress for a year so I don’t just stay at home depressing and doing the dishes. It really brought me down because I know it’s not easy for me to do this type of things like working in a public space but I’m trying not to be a burden and I’m willing to try my best in whatever job I get.
I just pray for my siblings not to get angry or disappointed at me because that would really put me in a bigger black hole. I just want my sister to understand and I’m going to really open up to her and tell her the truth I don’t tell others. A big part of what made me decide things this way is the fact that I know I will live stressed 24/7 as a flight attendant or in another touristic area. I wouldn’t be happy anyway.. Hopefully she will understand and encourage me to do what’s best for me.
So I’ve been inactive for almost a month. Meanwile, Ringo has released a new song, it passed one more year after Brian’s death, She Loves You got to the top of the british charts in 1963 on this very day, …
I suffer from anxiety which has been leading me to depressive periods and the last days have been hard. Tomorrow I will meet my new teachers and hopefully future friends because it’s the presentation of my class. I’m going to start studying tourism and I’m pretty nervous. I’m not sure if I even want this. What I really wanted was to work with elder people, people with special needs, sick children, etc. But my anxiety and some other mental health problems make it hard for me to be trusted in those areas. My family told me to give up on that idea too because everybody thinks it would be impossible and dangerous for those people to have me responsible for them. I don’t want to hurt anyone so I ended up going to tourism but I’m not happy. I pretend I am anyway because I don’t want to feel like a disappointment again.
I just hope everything turns out okay and I’m happier than I imagine on that new school and having friends this year would be so amazing. I’ve been really lonely during my last years so I really wish this year will be different.
I hope 2017 can still be my year.
I will keep on surviving with the Beatles’ help and it would be a blessing to meet more Beatlemaniacs. I will also try to be more active even on the bad days and if I don’t post much either is because I’m really sad or just without time. I’ll be giving news tomorrow, I hope. My classes start on Monday and I hope I survive.
The Beatles’ show at the Shea Stadiumwas 52 years ago today! It was one of the biggest moments for the boys and for the world too. It was the first Rock show on an open stadium and was massive. Around 55600 were present and the show was completely sold out. I can’t imagine how they felt like. All eyes were on them and it was such a big audience with lots of girls screaming like crazy. It must’ve been really hard because they could barely hear themselves. They probably had a lot of pressure not to fail. Later Paul said that “Once you know you’ve filled a place that size, it’s magic; just walls of people. Half the fun was being involved in this gigantic event ourselves.”
It’s amazing to watch videos of the event because it makes me feel like I was there too at the time (sorry if it sounds lame). I just get chills and it’s truly magical. I can’t believe an event with this dimension was real. I hope I could’ve lived it too, it would be the most amazing thing. But hopefully, we’ve been getting lots of footage of The Beatles and other bands/artists of the time and other big moments so it’s not that bad. We can still live it a little through the screen.
Here’s the list of the songs played at the 1965 show:
Twist & Shout
She’s A Woman
I Feel Fine
Dizzy Miss Lizzy
Ticket To Ride
Everybody’s Trying To Be My Baby
Can’t Buy Me Love
Baby’s In Black
A Hard Day’s Night
Here is some footage of the show in case you’d like to watch!
I hope we’ll have more and better videos of the show later but anyway have a nice day and I’m pretty sure that knocked out girl in the last video was me on my other life.
Help!was released 52 years ago, once more an album with the soundtrack of the homonymous movie. The Beatles were still living the pick of Beatlemania at the time but their music was already suffering some changes. Maybe because 1965 was also the year when George and John first tried LSD.
It’s another great album from them and of course the majority of the songs were written by John and Paul. George wrote I Need You and You Like Me Too Much. It has great songs like Yesterday,which is now the most covered song of all time. I believe this album also shows how they were feeling about all that Beatlemania stuff and all the stress. John said that he wrote Help!with that in mind and probably they all felt like it.
The Night Before
You’ve Got To Hide Your Love Away
I Need You
You’re Going To Lose That Girl
Ticket To Ride
It’s Only Love
You Like Me Too Much
Tell Me What You See
I’ve Just Seen A Face
Dizzy Miss Lizzy
Help! was going to be called Eight Arms To Hold You but I think Help! sounds a lot better, at least when it comes to the message of the song.
It’s a great album even though it’s one of my least favourite albums by The Beatles. Here’s my favourite song from it and its main song.
Revolver was released in the UK 51 years ago and 3 days later in the US. The album was really successful and it’s one of my favourite albums not only by The Beatles but in general.
It definitely changed the game for them and for the music industry. It was when they really started investing in the psychedelic sound and even the cover of the album is pretty cool. It was designed by a friend of them, Klaus Voormann.
It has amazing songs and here’s the list:
I’m Only Sleeping
Love You To
Here, There And Everywhere
She Said She Said
Good Day Sunshine
And Your Bird Can Sing
For No One
I Want To Tell You
Got To Get You Into My Life
Tomorrow Never Knows
George wrote three of these songs (Taxman, I Want To Tell You and Love You To) which isn’t that bad, remembering that it was really hard for him and Ringo to stand out a bit in the albums.
For the anniversary of the album, the Rolling Stone magazine published 15 facts about Revolver that are pretty awesome so I’m going to leave them here. It was really interesting knowing that they could’ve died electrocuted while recording it.
Paul and Ringo finally released new music together! We’re On the Road Again came out on Thursday, 27th July, and it’s amazing.
The song had other musicians working on it besides Paul. Joe Walsh (Eagles), Edgar Winter and Steve Lukather (both from Toto) played too. Ringo’s new album, Give Me Love, will be released on 15th September (it looks like September will hopefully be such a great month for me).
I liked the song a lot and can’t wait to listen to the rest of the album, I’m sure it will be fantastic.
It’s true. “It Was Fifty Years Ago Today… Sgt Pepper and Beyond” will finally be released in September here in Portugal and the teaser has already come out. The movie directed by Alan Parker is a tribute to the 50th anniversary of the iconic album this year. It was released in other countries on 26th September, but it will only be in our cinemas in a month and something. It happened the same with Eight Days A Week: The Touring Days. I actually watched it in New Year’s Eve waiting for midnight and 2017 to arrive.
I’m really excited and can’t wait to watch it, I love that people keep on making documentaries about them and studying their careers and Beatlemania. Pete Bestappears in the movie and it’s great to see him again.
Here’s the teaser I found and that really made me curious about the movie. It seems to have a lot of quality.
I will write about what I thought about the documentary (hopefully only great things!) after watching it.
On July 17, 1968, took place at the London Pavilion on Piccadilly Circus, the premiere of Yellow Submarine.The movie’s about Pepperland (a place under the sea protected by Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band). The land falls under a surprise attack from the evil Blue Meanies, who live in or beyond the blue mountains. It all starts like this and basically the Blue Meanies lose at the end and everything turns out fine. The story is very famous so I don’t think it’s necessary to put it all here. The Beatles loved the movie too and George even called it a classic. Ringo said that for years children would ask him “Why did you press the button?”in reference to when the cartoon Ringo inexplicably pressed the panic button in the yellow submarine, ejecting him into the Sea of Monsters. John told that his son Sean found out about his Beatle past watching the movie at a playmate’s house. He came home and asked his dad why he was a cartoon.
It’s soundtrack is iconic and I remember listening to Yellow Submarine on YouTube as a kid after searching for Love Me Do (I had to sing Love Me Do at school for Valentine’s Day that year). It got stuck on my head for a long time and I thought the song was cheerful and great for our age.
Even though the soundtrack album is the worst one for the critics and most people, I don’t agree with that. I don’t think any of their albums is bad neither (I’m being honest). It was a different work and surely they had lots of fun. Both the movie and it’s songs are legendary and it has many great songs too. It was another concept and I don’t think any artist or band could make the extraordinary work they did with the soundtrack for a movie starred by them in cartoons so I take off my hat for them with no shame. Here’s the full soundtrack:
Only A Northern Song
All Together Now
It’s All Too Much
All You Need Is Love
Sea Of Time
Sea Of Holes
Sea Of Monsters
March Of the Meanies
Pepperland Laid Waste
Yellow Submarine In Pepperland
All the songs from the A side were written by Lennon and McCartney except for Only A Northern Song and It’s All Too Muchthat are by George Harrison. The ones from the B side were written by George Martin (except for Yellow Submarine In Pepperlandthat is from John and Paul but was arranged by Martin).
The premiere was chaotic of course and were also present other bands like The Rolling Stonesand The Who. All the boys were with their girls but Paul went alone. Jane Asher (his girlfriend at the time) said their relationship was over three days later on TV.
Finally, I’ll let here my favourite song from the movie, my favourite scene from it and the trailer, here below the single.
I’m really sorry but I couldn’t find the original version of the song on YouTube because there were only covers, so here’s Ringo singing it live.
This is one of my favourite songs from them. It’s not from the album because it’s on Revolverbut it’s in the movie too.
Don’t forget it.. We all live in a yellow submarine! Yellow Submarine! Yellow Submarine!